I am here again

Is been a long since I updated my blog.

My life change suddenly.

That make me really wanna go back to the past.

Working life is really different with college life

The thing that need to face is much more stressful than I thought.

I not sure when I will feel tired with the life now.

Im getting worst now.

After work and weekend, I totally dont feel like going out.

I just wanna stay at home and watch tv or do others thing.

I just feel life is boring and not enough for me.

Sat and sun are the day I feel relax.

I always tell myself

Maybe my life hard now, later will be better.

But when past by this hard time, is really hard.

It test my patience and my mind.

Few times already, I feel like giving up.

In front of ppl, I dont cry.

Ppl always say Im so strong, eventhough I having hard time.

But I feel like telling them,

Actually Im not the person that you all thought.

Im also a girl that weak and will cry.

I also need ppl to protect me.

My outlook give ppl a impression.

Im not easy to give up, strong and boyish.

This all is pura- pura. Just to protect myself.

That maybe make me dont hv bf till now.

Just feel very tired.

My mind is really tired now.

Working not that good, love life is empty. enjoy life empty.

Empty empty empty.

What should I do now?

3rd Person

I'm the 3rd person now

this 3rd person is not about love.

This is the 3rd person between boss and contractor.

Boss need to argue about the pricing.

Then I will suffer on it.

Bcos the contractor will come back and * telling * me

" Ur boss everything also need discount

Here FOC there FOC.

We also need labour charging ah.

Although talk about the hacking thing.

Mr Chiew Rm 2000 plus is including hacking, trunking and piping ah.

Why need us to pay half for you?

We only didnt cooperate in hacking. "

What should I say?

I really dont know. Bcos I know the true.

Rm 2000 plus is including those.

Yes it true. But the boss still want to say like this. I cant say no oh .

But the contractor that time also say" will help you with the hacking RM 2000.

If that guy still charging you. I will ask him to take the money from me"

But ended up ???

Story always different when ending.

Between boss and contractor. Im being the 3rd person is very tired.

I think for the love one is being 3rd person also not that goodfeeling also.

I feeling bad. Just want to express myself in my blog.

I dont want to tell anyone.

that why I just write.

I ask ppl to come back for working on sat.

But sound like it will not work.

Bcos.

Server gonna down. How they going to key in?

I really feel bad.

I really wish the renovation is end now.

What am I doing now

As the title say what am I doing now?

Am I a designer?

I dont know

I really dont know what to do now.

Am I useless? or the boss is too picky?

The supervisor tell me that boss will always argue with the contractor.

Why this happen?

Bcos the payment for her, not fair * cheap*enough

If thing go wrong, she will always ask for discount.

If the thing she dont like , she will argue about that.

When she forget the thing she thought before, she will argue that you did the wrong thing that she need.

Today renovation is totally stop

bcos arguement happen.

Bcos of money thing, she stop everything

She didnt think about if renovation stop,

you have to face

- can you finish it before july 31st?

- client need to start their work

- training need to be start.

a lot of things.

Lump sum- I dont know how contractor going to separate it?

Always giving trouble for me

Am I a office boy?

Today come to work, I already know this gonna be bad for me.

The renovation not finish, my bad dream will always be here.

I really hate renovation stuff now.

When the renovation start, I really happy.

Thought I dont need to face any quotation again.

But Im wrong.

Totally wrong

I feel like crying now.

I really wish next time I can choose better company that i love to work in.

I dont want lady be boss .

What will happen today

I can imagine what will happen today.

Sat and Sun supposed is my rest day.

Why you still sending me msg about office work?

Luckily I think I will not work here for long time.

If not I sure kill myself when reading your mail.

Kira money untill like this,

I 1st time only see.

You give professional ppl do renovation then ok oh.

Why still want to squeeze people till I also no eye see oh?

Money is hard to find now.

You squeeze till I guess you already take out ppl interest oh

I feel pity with them,

But I dont feel pity for you since you do that to them.

NO MAIL while SAT n SUN

Im not working diedly for you!~!!!

Money that you pay, is not included OT or sat or sun.

I already extra working for you more than 7 hours per week.

Is not that Im not finishing my work

Just you keep giving me the trouble that I already solve,

And changing your mind.

That day friday, when supervisor give me the paper write to scold you or whatever

I really feel like scolding you

But Im not

bcos you r the one who pay me

Really shit.

I hate that.

If you want to kira kira with me,

I will also.

Just now touch reach my limitation.

If not when im leaving

Im not giving you time to find others ppl to replace me

no one under me,

Im happy bcos no one can replace me.

That will give you a hard time when im leaving.

Almost 2 months

I actualy dont feel happy now.

Im not sure is it the project that Im working on right now.

Everyday have to call ppl, rush ppl, like ah sam buying thing.

Everytime you say Im giving you the training for your multimedia ah

Idiot.

You are using me,

YOU think Im IDIOT ah

you are making my art skill dropping down now.

Shit These few days really no in mood.

Apple to Apple

Apple to apple

Apple to apple

Apple to apple

Apple to apple

Apple to apple

Everyday say apple to apple

I hate it now.

-Ceiling light c/w point =RM 195

and

-Ceiling light= RM 140

Light point = RM 55

is same right ???????

Why not apple to apple?

Damn you.

you cant even decide what kind of light you want.

How do you want your contractor to start work?

How they going to give a good quotation?

Today you want 2 x 2 ceiling

Tomorrow you say ei. 2 x 2 ceiling go ugly I want downlight

then different again.

Are you having many type of thing is your heart?

Come on.

you want people fast. But you didn’t move.

Then come and blame me say I didn’t push you

How to push?

I push you say ok confirm like this .

But tomorrow you say I feel like this not nice oh

Change again.

Damn…………

Who make thing hard?

ME !!!!

Yeah Im doing hard thing. Who give me this hard thing to do?

WHO who …..

Tell me.

Being scolded by supplier during my graduation time.

Is this a good thing for me?

Who give me a surprise ah?

Who make the supplier angry?

Luckily Im calm that time

If not that fellow sure shoot!

I still can tahan now.

But don’t make me really cannot tahan.

If not I won’t care about you and just leave.

I really dont feel happy during work.
Why I feel I dont have normal people have de friendship?

I feel like Im always alone fighting

I feel jealous something watching friend hang out with friend

It might be my problem also.

I really miss secondary time

I can go gathering whenever I want

Till what time also can

Can high untill so happy forget the stress.

But I know time will not return back.

TIme will just moving.

Just miss My Life

I just feel bored with my life now

Just bored

Boring

Really no mood

I really dont like to work on Sat.

I dont know why when work on Sat I felt very stress .

Many ppl told me working is stress de

If not you wont learn or gain experience.

But I found actually stress is make by ourself human.

If human have good behaviour.

If wont make the people beside you feel stress.

My stress all due to the supplier.

Who not submitting stuff due to their deadline.

Why ppl need to push then only move.

Dont you know leg is with you Why dont you walk yourself.

Really tired sometimes to keep make sure someone is moving

I really hope this project quickly end.

I just want a balance life.

If not I really scare my generation sickness will appear soon.

Cos one of it is starting already.

I really feel my life is really hard to walk.

When I walk through my life,

Sure have many blocking that make me drop down blocking me

many times wanted to give up already.

But I didnt.

Because I haven really enjoy my happy life before.

I Want a Balance Life.

Balance Life

Balance Life

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Interesting Ice Cream that I found oh

Really dont wanted to eat if I saw it.