I am here again

Is been a long since I updated my blog.

My life change suddenly.

That make me really wanna go back to the past.

Working life is really different with college life

The thing that need to face is much more stressful than I thought.

I not sure when I will feel tired with the life now.

Im getting worst now.

After work and weekend, I totally dont feel like going out.

I just wanna stay at home and watch tv or do others thing.

I just feel life is boring and not enough for me.

Sat and sun are the day I feel relax.

I always tell myself

Maybe my life hard now, later will be better.

But when past by this hard time, is really hard.

It test my patience and my mind.

Few times already, I feel like giving up.

In front of ppl, I dont cry.

Ppl always say Im so strong, eventhough I having hard time.

But I feel like telling them,

Actually Im not the person that you all thought.

Im also a girl that weak and will cry.

I also need ppl to protect me.

My outlook give ppl a impression.

Im not easy to give up, strong and boyish.

This all is pura- pura. Just to protect myself.

That maybe make me dont hv bf till now.

Just feel very tired.

My mind is really tired now.

Working not that good, love life is empty. enjoy life empty.

Empty empty empty.

What should I do now?