Privacy please

Can you give me some privacy please?

Sometime I wondering how old am I? Why I'm still having a life like a small kid? Being control by people, this cannot...that cannot.
Can anyone just tell me who am I and how old am I?

Today actually having a good mood, but I never knew that the mood just spoil by your words.
Firstly, You compare us with other's children. Again you say why people can be so tidy and you guy can't do it?
Excuse me..... I personally dont like tidy because after I tidy my stuff I dont even remember where it put.. Then what is the purpose of tidiness? I simply put my stuff, I still can easily find out my stuff. I'm so sorry to Mr Tidy. I really hate you. Once I tidy my room or table, I can easily forget what I had before because everything just pack too nicely.
I wanna ask YOU back what is your tidiness mean to you? From what I see, I only know tidiness for you is just simple put all the thing in the cupboard where you can see and close the door. That's all.

Secondly, You ask us what you guy buy so many earrings? Why?
I wanna fight back say NONE of YOUR BUSINESS.
If I wanna tell you, I will tell you. But I'm so sorry, I dont feel like telling you.
You do not keep secret for us. Never. You even talk bad about us in front of other people.

Thirdly, You say dont blame on you if you simple put our stuff in the cupboard. See ....this is what you means tidiness.

Fourthly, why come home so late? Whose fault is that?
Excuse me, sister is working. Not say I want to go home then go home. Boss paying you money not for you to be lazy. You even told us to go home early, go there late, no overtime and even resign just because of your holiday. It's that how you teach a child? Is that a good example?

I really dont know what I should do.

Hate me?

Before people hate me,
I think I gonna hate myself.

Pls la Shindii
Dont scare ppl around you.
Hard to find ppl care you

Try to change attitude
When you not happy
Dont express it on him

When you sad
Dont angry on him
Pls care about his feeling

When he wanna go out with friend
Just let him freedom
Dont try to tighten it up

When he is tired
Just let him sleep
Dont be selfish

Cherish the thing that you have

Getting old?

Every time log in blogspot also forget my password,
OMG
am I getting old?
but yesterday I only realized that Im going to 23 already @@
wow Im really that old
but I feel like Im still 18
hahaha XD
just dont want to grow up
there are a lots of stress and frustrated thing while growing
I just hope my life can pass through happily
maybe that's the problem Im still being control by them
bcos they thought Im still kiddy

Im no more a kid
Dont treat me as kid
I got my own opinion
I only do
whatever I think I should do
whatever I think is right

I dont make up ~ not bcos of u
Is bcos make up will spoil the skin

I dont dye my hair ~ not bcos of u
Is bcos dying hair will easily grow white hair

I always stay at home ~ not bcos of u
Is bcos I dont want to make myself into trouble

Please give me freedom.
Even though you are my parent, doesn't means you can take care of me forever
One day you all will leave me also.

Can I fly?

Yesterday my sister received a call for intern from a big company.
It's suppose to be a happy news for her.
But her hope broken.
Parents ask her see whether can reject it or not.
Reason?
Transport Problem....

This make me think back my time.
I remember one year ago, I got a chance to work in 8TV.
They called me to join them.
I'm really happy, never work with tv station before.
Hope being destroy
Reason?
Transport Problem....

My friend asked me why dont you drive?
Dont have license?
Answer is I hv license.
The reason is I scare driving even though I have license.
I dont know why.
I wish Im dare to drive out to anywhere.
But I couldnt make it.
Useless

I really wish I'm brave enough to drive a car by my own.
Then I hv some freedom outside.

Sigh...

Back to blog life with a moody feeling

I wanna cry.
I dont feel happy today.
The only thing that make me happy also gone.
" Yellow Man " took my happiness away.

Sad (1):
Since last night till now, my phone dont have any line.
Damn stupid.
Really wanna throw my phone.
I miss somebody.
T^T

Sad (2):
I suppose to get my 1k cheque collection by this month.
But ended up he say i dont think u issue me your invoice.
!!!!!!!
What the hell!
>.< God also play with me.
I couldnt find back the email I send to him with the invoice
Sigh

Can anyone return me the happiness?

How many 15 mins in our life?

CS : Customer service  | C1: Customer 1

CS: Good morning. What can I help you?
C1: I would like to make a complain regarding to my refund.
CS: Ok. What is it about?
C1: Today I went to account department. I pressed the number
       and wait for 15 mins then is my turn.
       Then in the counter another 30 mins.
       AD: " where is your student statement? "
       ME: " I don't hv any student statement."
       AD: " You supposed to get a student statement only can 
                 get the signature from us."
       ME: " I don't hv any student statement, the lady who sitting
                 beside you handle my case yesterday.
                Can you pass to her?
      AD: " In that case, you should go to Door 3 to look for Pn.......
      * The end from account department*
CS: So what is your complain?
C1: That lady asked me to come back to her today, 
       that the reason I went back to there.
       If she told me I need to go to door 3 to look for someone, 
       just tell me straightly.
       What is the purpose for me to wait 15 + 30 mins there?
CS: Ok. I get what you means. Is there anything else?

C1: Yes. I go to door 3 to look for Pn...
       Unfortunately the system offline.

       The Pn that supposed to handle my case, just walk around. 

       Then I have to wait like a idiot. I waited for 15mins.
       Then she came back and say, 
       when the system online back will call me to tell me he refund amount.
C1: Miss / madam, do I know how many 15mins should I wasted in this school? 
CS: I will jot down your problem.
C1: My complain haven't end yet. 

       Around 12pm, I went back to sch to check
       whether the system is on back or not.
       Their system is on back, but Pn didn't call me!!.

       She printed out the statement, and come back and
       say miss, you don't have any refund.

       then she say ohya, I didn't noticed your letter.
       Let me have a look 1st.
       Pn: Miss, your fees can't refund since you already studying.
       ME: I didn't ask for refund subject's fee.
               I only asked for refund exam fee.
              Since I'm withdrawing from the school, why I need to sit the exam?
       Pn: Oh I didn't noticed you written refund exam fee.
             Ok. So I show you how many refund you can get back?
             Register is RM 1360. The course for both is RM XXXX.
             Exam fee is RM XXXX. So total is RM 2XXX.
             Below is the amount that you pay is balance with the debit.
             But since you withdraw from the sch,
             you need to pay back RM 360.

             So you still owe us RM 360. That means no refund also.

      ME: Sorry? Ok I have to pay RM 360.
              But the school have to refund RM 350 to me.
              Cos my deposit is RM 950, but my subject only RM 600.
               So sch hv to pay me back RM 350.
              Then previously I bank in RM 40.
               So that means school have to refund RM 30.
       Pn: Rm 950 is the deposit, is not refundable.
       ME: My subject only cost RM600,
              why I need to pay RM 950 for deposit?
       Pn: I don't have the power, you may nego with our VP.
       * Don't know how to explain and no more power already
CS: ok I understand your situation now.
       I will write your report and pass to my boss.

C1: Miss/ Madam, how many 15 mins I need to waste on here?

      Morning session: 15+ 30+ 15mins
      Evening session: 30 mins.

      TIME IS PRECIOUS.
CS: Ok. Thanks for your calling. We will try to improve it.

Geramnya!!!!!!

I really wish I can burst out my feeling to that sch.
Today I go to class, then lecture keep say next week is the exam. Two weeks later is your speaking test
The thing is I'm not going to take the exam.
I can't tell her due to the withdrawal thing hvn settle.
Lecturer say speaking test need a group of 5 person.
My friends straightly put me inside their group.
I can't tell them that I didn't take the test.
What should I do?

Everything just because one lady. She MC, that makes me delay all my stuff.
I calculated the fees of the school.
I realized that they tell me that I owe the sch RM40, ask me to bank in only get the signature.
They included the exam fees inside.
What for I take the exam?
Do I get the cert?
Excuse me. I'm leaving the sch.

Now I stuck in the middle.
Who can help me?
I feel like screw those ppl, but I know I can't do it.
That the reason I express it here.
Is this school called Mau Suck You?
They are liked sucking our money, then build a nice big campus for us.
I don't need nice campus, what I need is good practical study.
That can help us in the future.

Bukit Raja Pizza Hut

Today purposely came there because of the 50% discount meal but feel like being cheated.
Becos the pizza on wed is BEEF!!!!, but it didnt written on the menu.
OK OK Never mind.
I ordered another food, and waited for 10 mins plus.
My mum asked the waited , he say have to wait for 10 mins more!!
OMG....PIZZA need 20 mins?
From 1pm wait wait wait till 1.20pm
Service pls improve it!. We pay the service charge so pls do it better.
One more thing, there is a girl wearing tudung, she even show impatient expression to customer. Is it a your good service? She dont get a smile to customer, but keep showing the black face to us.
BAD IMPRESSION.

Whose car is this?

BxW 8xx3 Camry?

Definitely not mine.
He is a *OLD MAN* who is my neighbor.
From the way he parked, you can imagine how selfish is he.
That is my gate, he is blocking my way!!

This is the old man that I mention!
He look very very very old but only 50++
Even the security pass by, they also dint both  also dont bother.

That is a two way road, how about now?
One way/ half way road?

ok come back to the old man part.
He do anything also for some purpose which is OUTSTANDING!
He brought this house, but he ask the contrator to take everything out except the cover of the house.
Why not he just buy a land and build it yourself? Is more cheaper.
He also build a 3rd storey too. Almost all the window he covered it up. haha....super triple hot inside.
Whatever, I just dont like him. Just covered up everything, dont let me see you!!!!.

Time is precious!!!

Yesterday, I just want to get my procedure thing done in XSX and leave the place.
After I got the form from there, I noticed that I need to get 5 signatures from different departments.
Was so troublesome. Their place is * not that* small, plus their working attitude, that make me became like a volcano that going to burst.

I went to one of the department ( account )
1st lady :" You dont need to go to the level above this to get the memo, but you need to pay RM40. Because you have to pay back the discount while your registration time, and you get a refund RM 320." 
Ok. I went to bank and bank in. I forgot that machine didnt accept RM 1, so I guess that time I blur, I forgot to take all my money out from the machine left RM 10 ( Rm5 x2) inside. Then the guy behind me took the money O.O while I press the number to line up in the bank. He is a malay guy. WHERE IS YOUR MORAL? Should I say not moral.
Then I go back the same department. 2nd lady serve me from 12.15pm till 12.50pm. But most of the time talking to her HOD.
2nd lady :" You need go to the level above to get the memo, to prove this and that.
Me :" The person in charge is MC ...
2nd lady :" Ya I know, you just need to go to FAC.. to get the memo, only can sign for you.
Then I go to FAC...
The HOD of FAC :" Huh memo? What kind of memo?
Me :" Acc department ask me to come to FAC and get the memo to prove .......
HOD :" Your person in charge MC, I can't do anything. You need to wait for her.
WTH!!!!!
These procedures waited my time for 1 and half hours, but haven get it done.
Dont they know time is precious?

Another * AGAIN*

Again....again. you saying im busy with others stuff o cant do.

The idea is you are the one who propose, but not doing anything on the idea.

Then wat for you propose the idea. Stupid.

Weekend doesnt means that you are the only one who is busy.

Im also busy, just that do you hv the heart to do only.

Honestly, I only feel tat you are damn lazy. 

Everything I do, should I ask you wat have you done?

I ask you to do graphic, but you only cut my graphic to put on yours.

What is the point??

Is this fresh? Excuse me.

When you go out that time, dont tell me that you are designer.

Designer should hv their own idea. Not Copy Cat.

When I say ok. You just concentrate on others part. 

Cool ah...you reply  " I know. But I busy wit other sutff.

Is this call teamwork?

Teamwork with only me doing the job?

haha.....Thanks for telling me this is TEAMWORK .

You are the only one got internet at home.

But what you did?

After 4 days, you only add friend only add 12 friends.

This is how you get your job done?

I really wonder, how you work outside?

Sometime I really wanted to slap your head to the wall.

Doesnt mean that I violent.

Just that I enough already.

Stress not only you hv it.Everyone also got.

Shit.

My bad feeling come back again

Im crazy again. Recently I saw my friend from single change to in relationship.
I feel sad again.
Im sad not bcos he have a gf, is just bcos Im jealous with them.
Im really jealous with the people / friend who have bf/ gf.
I knew that hving a bf doesnt means you will happy all the time.
Sometimes might b sweet, sour and etc.

Due to my attitude, sometimes I love to hv one. But sometimes I jus like to b alone.
Dont know how to control myself.
I always tell myself, mayb my fate haven come yet.
Or mayb guy like pretty girl / girlish kind of girl.
I dont like to waste money on make up.
It will spoil my skin also.

Sigh, I also dont know how to express my feeling now.
Jus feel lonely.
Mayb few days later, I wil b better.
Hope so.

Extremely Systematic College

Wow Cool as the title say, extremely systematic college. 

A college which hv hotel, plaza and so on. Look cool man. 

When go in that time, u wil feel u r inside a hotel * high class hotel*. 

When come to register that time, you hv to press number n wait for it. 

Look systematic right? but you r wrong. 

They are damn idiot man. 

I get the number which only got 10 more numbers then is my turn. 

But But I waited for 1 hours n 40 mins for that 10 numbers. 

Bank is faster than you !!!!

Guess what happen? 

Then number is jumping toward and backward. 

Keep jumping. 

Some number been calling for more than 5 times.

Idiot man!!!! wasting time.

OK ....Wait for 1 hours n 40 mins then my turn. 

The girl type my name wrongly, even though she looking at my form n IC!!! 

Then she say sorry the system dont have the thing I needed. 

So I hv to pay them 1st, then they will double confirm with me whether the things is on or not. HAHA....Why I want to trust you? 

If my stuff is not keying inside the system?

Oh gosh.......Wasting time but cant get thing DONE!!!!

Angry grrrrrr~~~~~~~~~

Human Face Fish

Dunno is it scary or not? GOT human face o ~~~!!!~~~

But I scare oh >.< 

mamami eh 

Im Back !!!!

hoho ^^
Really really quite some period im not online my blogspot at all.
That time really no mood to go blogspot.
After I leave that place, throw all the thing back to her, I free now.
I miss u...my lovely blog.

Today onward, I will come back here n updated my life again
Now I working in a food company, >.< that why getting fat.
But actually is Im happy here. Everyone are nice, n quite friendly.
Just that sometimes, still hv to beware about my speak.
Mayb there is * small people*, you wont know right?

Other than that, I move my house already lo.....
Now living in Setia Alam ^^ hohoho
Dun think everyone staying in SA will be rich o .
There are a lots of rumah teres also o ....
Just that Im sad o ...NO INTERNET man...
So sufferring without it.

Ok Temporarily stop here....Hv to back to work lo ...

I am here again

Is been a long since I updated my blog.

My life change suddenly.

That make me really wanna go back to the past.

Working life is really different with college life

The thing that need to face is much more stressful than I thought.

I not sure when I will feel tired with the life now.

Im getting worst now.

After work and weekend, I totally dont feel like going out.

I just wanna stay at home and watch tv or do others thing.

I just feel life is boring and not enough for me.

Sat and sun are the day I feel relax.

I always tell myself

Maybe my life hard now, later will be better.

But when past by this hard time, is really hard.

It test my patience and my mind.

Few times already, I feel like giving up.

In front of ppl, I dont cry.

Ppl always say Im so strong, eventhough I having hard time.

But I feel like telling them,

Actually Im not the person that you all thought.

Im also a girl that weak and will cry.

I also need ppl to protect me.

My outlook give ppl a impression.

Im not easy to give up, strong and boyish.

This all is pura- pura. Just to protect myself.

That maybe make me dont hv bf till now.

Just feel very tired.

My mind is really tired now.

Working not that good, love life is empty. enjoy life empty.

Empty empty empty.

What should I do now?

3rd Person

I'm the 3rd person now

this 3rd person is not about love.

This is the 3rd person between boss and contractor.

Boss need to argue about the pricing.

Then I will suffer on it.

Bcos the contractor will come back and * telling * me

" Ur boss everything also need discount

Here FOC there FOC.

We also need labour charging ah.

Although talk about the hacking thing.

Mr Chiew Rm 2000 plus is including hacking, trunking and piping ah.

Why need us to pay half for you?

We only didnt cooperate in hacking. "

What should I say?

I really dont know. Bcos I know the true.

Rm 2000 plus is including those.

Yes it true. But the boss still want to say like this. I cant say no oh .

But the contractor that time also say" will help you with the hacking RM 2000.

If that guy still charging you. I will ask him to take the money from me"

But ended up ???

Story always different when ending.

Between boss and contractor. Im being the 3rd person is very tired.

I think for the love one is being 3rd person also not that goodfeeling also.

I feeling bad. Just want to express myself in my blog.

I dont want to tell anyone.

that why I just write.

I ask ppl to come back for working on sat.

But sound like it will not work.

Bcos.

Server gonna down. How they going to key in?

I really feel bad.

I really wish the renovation is end now.

What am I doing now

As the title say what am I doing now?

Am I a designer?

I dont know

I really dont know what to do now.

Am I useless? or the boss is too picky?

The supervisor tell me that boss will always argue with the contractor.

Why this happen?

Bcos the payment for her, not fair * cheap*enough

If thing go wrong, she will always ask for discount.

If the thing she dont like , she will argue about that.

When she forget the thing she thought before, she will argue that you did the wrong thing that she need.

Today renovation is totally stop

bcos arguement happen.

Bcos of money thing, she stop everything

She didnt think about if renovation stop,

you have to face

- can you finish it before july 31st?

- client need to start their work

- training need to be start.

a lot of things.

Lump sum- I dont know how contractor going to separate it?

Always giving trouble for me

Am I a office boy?

Today come to work, I already know this gonna be bad for me.

The renovation not finish, my bad dream will always be here.

I really hate renovation stuff now.

When the renovation start, I really happy.

Thought I dont need to face any quotation again.

But Im wrong.

Totally wrong

I feel like crying now.

I really wish next time I can choose better company that i love to work in.

I dont want lady be boss .

What will happen today

I can imagine what will happen today.

Sat and Sun supposed is my rest day.

Why you still sending me msg about office work?

Luckily I think I will not work here for long time.

If not I sure kill myself when reading your mail.

Kira money untill like this,

I 1st time only see.

You give professional ppl do renovation then ok oh.

Why still want to squeeze people till I also no eye see oh?

Money is hard to find now.

You squeeze till I guess you already take out ppl interest oh

I feel pity with them,

But I dont feel pity for you since you do that to them.

NO MAIL while SAT n SUN

Im not working diedly for you!~!!!

Money that you pay, is not included OT or sat or sun.

I already extra working for you more than 7 hours per week.

Is not that Im not finishing my work

Just you keep giving me the trouble that I already solve,

And changing your mind.

That day friday, when supervisor give me the paper write to scold you or whatever

I really feel like scolding you

But Im not

bcos you r the one who pay me

Really shit.

I hate that.

If you want to kira kira with me,

I will also.

Just now touch reach my limitation.

If not when im leaving

Im not giving you time to find others ppl to replace me

no one under me,

Im happy bcos no one can replace me.

That will give you a hard time when im leaving.

Almost 2 months

I actualy dont feel happy now.

Im not sure is it the project that Im working on right now.

Everyday have to call ppl, rush ppl, like ah sam buying thing.

Everytime you say Im giving you the training for your multimedia ah

Idiot.

You are using me,

YOU think Im IDIOT ah

you are making my art skill dropping down now.

Shit These few days really no in mood.

Apple to Apple

Apple to apple

Apple to apple

Apple to apple

Apple to apple

Apple to apple

Everyday say apple to apple

I hate it now.

-Ceiling light c/w point =RM 195

and

-Ceiling light= RM 140

Light point = RM 55

is same right ???????

Why not apple to apple?

Damn you.

you cant even decide what kind of light you want.

How do you want your contractor to start work?

How they going to give a good quotation?

Today you want 2 x 2 ceiling

Tomorrow you say ei. 2 x 2 ceiling go ugly I want downlight

then different again.

Are you having many type of thing is your heart?

Come on.

you want people fast. But you didn’t move.

Then come and blame me say I didn’t push you

How to push?

I push you say ok confirm like this .

But tomorrow you say I feel like this not nice oh

Change again.

Damn…………

Who make thing hard?

ME !!!!

Yeah Im doing hard thing. Who give me this hard thing to do?

WHO who …..

Tell me.

Being scolded by supplier during my graduation time.

Is this a good thing for me?

Who give me a surprise ah?

Who make the supplier angry?

Luckily Im calm that time

If not that fellow sure shoot!

I still can tahan now.

But don’t make me really cannot tahan.

If not I won’t care about you and just leave.

I really dont feel happy during work.
Why I feel I dont have normal people have de friendship?

I feel like Im always alone fighting

I feel jealous something watching friend hang out with friend

It might be my problem also.

I really miss secondary time

I can go gathering whenever I want

Till what time also can

Can high untill so happy forget the stress.

But I know time will not return back.

TIme will just moving.

Just miss My Life

I just feel bored with my life now

Just bored

Boring