Privacy please

Can you give me some privacy please?

Sometime I wondering how old am I? Why I'm still having a life like a small kid? Being control by people, this cannot...that cannot.
Can anyone just tell me who am I and how old am I?

Today actually having a good mood, but I never knew that the mood just spoil by your words.
Firstly, You compare us with other's children. Again you say why people can be so tidy and you guy can't do it?
Excuse me..... I personally dont like tidy because after I tidy my stuff I dont even remember where it put.. Then what is the purpose of tidiness? I simply put my stuff, I still can easily find out my stuff. I'm so sorry to Mr Tidy. I really hate you. Once I tidy my room or table, I can easily forget what I had before because everything just pack too nicely.
I wanna ask YOU back what is your tidiness mean to you? From what I see, I only know tidiness for you is just simple put all the thing in the cupboard where you can see and close the door. That's all.

Secondly, You ask us what you guy buy so many earrings? Why?
I wanna fight back say NONE of YOUR BUSINESS.
If I wanna tell you, I will tell you. But I'm so sorry, I dont feel like telling you.
You do not keep secret for us. Never. You even talk bad about us in front of other people.

Thirdly, You say dont blame on you if you simple put our stuff in the cupboard. See ....this is what you means tidiness.

Fourthly, why come home so late? Whose fault is that?
Excuse me, sister is working. Not say I want to go home then go home. Boss paying you money not for you to be lazy. You even told us to go home early, go there late, no overtime and even resign just because of your holiday. It's that how you teach a child? Is that a good example?

I really dont know what I should do.

Spoil

Im quite happy for the whole day.

bcos of him.

Sometimes I really feel like 24 hours stick with him. 

Dont need to go home

but the mood suddenly being spoil by her

my mind keep thinking the word that say by her.

Hate this.

Why cant she talk in front of me?

Sometimes I really dont know how to communicate with them.

In front of ppl, they always look like friend for us. 

Ppl will say wow, so nice you just like your daughter's best friend.

They will answer, yeah should communicate with your son / daughter. 

Sigh......

I feel like this blogspot is a place where I always release my mood

I really wonder when I can leave this cage?

I feel hard to breathe

Sigh....

I think soon my post will always appear in this post.

" 志 我好想念你哦，对不起我没乖乖的睡觉

我的头脑一直烦着睡不到，写完了我就睡的哦

工作加油”

Can I fly?

Yesterday my sister received a call for intern from a big company.
It's suppose to be a happy news for her.
But her hope broken.
Parents ask her see whether can reject it or not.
Reason?
Transport Problem....

This make me think back my time.
I remember one year ago, I got a chance to work in 8TV.
They called me to join them.
I'm really happy, never work with tv station before.
Hope being destroy
Reason?
Transport Problem....

My friend asked me why dont you drive?
Dont have license?
Answer is I hv license.
The reason is I scare driving even though I have license.
I dont know why.
I wish Im dare to drive out to anywhere.
But I couldnt make it.
Useless

I really wish I'm brave enough to drive a car by my own.
Then I hv some freedom outside.

Sigh...

Back to blog life with a moody feeling

I wanna cry.
I dont feel happy today.
The only thing that make me happy also gone.
" Yellow Man " took my happiness away.

Sad (1):
Since last night till now, my phone dont have any line.
Damn stupid.
Really wanna throw my phone.
I miss somebody.
T^T

Sad (2):
I suppose to get my 1k cheque collection by this month.
But ended up he say i dont think u issue me your invoice.
!!!!!!!
What the hell!
>.< God also play with me.
I couldnt find back the email I send to him with the invoice
Sigh

Can anyone return me the happiness?

Geramnya!!!!!!

I really wish I can burst out my feeling to that sch.
Today I go to class, then lecture keep say next week is the exam. Two weeks later is your speaking test
The thing is I'm not going to take the exam.
I can't tell her due to the withdrawal thing hvn settle.
Lecturer say speaking test need a group of 5 person.
My friends straightly put me inside their group.
I can't tell them that I didn't take the test.
What should I do?

Everything just because one lady. She MC, that makes me delay all my stuff.
I calculated the fees of the school.
I realized that they tell me that I owe the sch RM40, ask me to bank in only get the signature.
They included the exam fees inside.
What for I take the exam?
Do I get the cert?
Excuse me. I'm leaving the sch.

Now I stuck in the middle.
Who can help me?
I feel like screw those ppl, but I know I can't do it.
That the reason I express it here.
Is this school called Mau Suck You?
They are liked sucking our money, then build a nice big campus for us.
I don't need nice campus, what I need is good practical study.
That can help us in the future.

Time is precious!!!

Yesterday, I just want to get my procedure thing done in XSX and leave the place.
After I got the form from there, I noticed that I need to get 5 signatures from different departments.
Was so troublesome. Their place is * not that* small, plus their working attitude, that make me became like a volcano that going to burst.

I went to one of the department ( account )
1st lady :" You dont need to go to the level above this to get the memo, but you need to pay RM40. Because you have to pay back the discount while your registration time, and you get a refund RM 320." 
Ok. I went to bank and bank in. I forgot that machine didnt accept RM 1, so I guess that time I blur, I forgot to take all my money out from the machine left RM 10 ( Rm5 x2) inside. Then the guy behind me took the money O.O while I press the number to line up in the bank. He is a malay guy. WHERE IS YOUR MORAL? Should I say not moral.
Then I go back the same department. 2nd lady serve me from 12.15pm till 12.50pm. But most of the time talking to her HOD.
2nd lady :" You need go to the level above to get the memo, to prove this and that.
Me :" The person in charge is MC ...
2nd lady :" Ya I know, you just need to go to FAC.. to get the memo, only can sign for you.
Then I go to FAC...
The HOD of FAC :" Huh memo? What kind of memo?
Me :" Acc department ask me to come to FAC and get the memo to prove .......
HOD :" Your person in charge MC, I can't do anything. You need to wait for her.
WTH!!!!!
These procedures waited my time for 1 and half hours, but haven get it done.
Dont they know time is precious?

Another * AGAIN*

Again....again. you saying im busy with others stuff o cant do.

The idea is you are the one who propose, but not doing anything on the idea.

Then wat for you propose the idea. Stupid.

Weekend doesnt means that you are the only one who is busy.

Im also busy, just that do you hv the heart to do only.

Honestly, I only feel tat you are damn lazy. 

Everything I do, should I ask you wat have you done?

I ask you to do graphic, but you only cut my graphic to put on yours.

What is the point??

Is this fresh? Excuse me.

When you go out that time, dont tell me that you are designer.

Designer should hv their own idea. Not Copy Cat.

When I say ok. You just concentrate on others part. 

Cool ah...you reply  " I know. But I busy wit other sutff.

Is this call teamwork?

Teamwork with only me doing the job?

haha.....Thanks for telling me this is TEAMWORK .

You are the only one got internet at home.

But what you did?

After 4 days, you only add friend only add 12 friends.

This is how you get your job done?

I really wonder, how you work outside?

Sometime I really wanted to slap your head to the wall.

Doesnt mean that I violent.

Just that I enough already.

Stress not only you hv it.Everyone also got.

Shit.

My bad feeling come back again

Im crazy again. Recently I saw my friend from single change to in relationship.
I feel sad again.
Im sad not bcos he have a gf, is just bcos Im jealous with them.
Im really jealous with the people / friend who have bf/ gf.
I knew that hving a bf doesnt means you will happy all the time.
Sometimes might b sweet, sour and etc.

Due to my attitude, sometimes I love to hv one. But sometimes I jus like to b alone.
Dont know how to control myself.
I always tell myself, mayb my fate haven come yet.
Or mayb guy like pretty girl / girlish kind of girl.
I dont like to waste money on make up.
It will spoil my skin also.

Sigh, I also dont know how to express my feeling now.
Jus feel lonely.
Mayb few days later, I wil b better.
Hope so.

Im Back !!!!

hoho ^^
Really really quite some period im not online my blogspot at all.
That time really no mood to go blogspot.
After I leave that place, throw all the thing back to her, I free now.
I miss u...my lovely blog.

Today onward, I will come back here n updated my life again
Now I working in a food company, >.< that why getting fat.
But actually is Im happy here. Everyone are nice, n quite friendly.
Just that sometimes, still hv to beware about my speak.
Mayb there is * small people*, you wont know right?

Other than that, I move my house already lo.....
Now living in Setia Alam ^^ hohoho
Dun think everyone staying in SA will be rich o .
There are a lots of rumah teres also o ....
Just that Im sad o ...NO INTERNET man...
So sufferring without it.

Ok Temporarily stop here....Hv to back to work lo ...

Really moody

I really mad now.
I really tak boleh tahan ah.
It spoil my whole day..
Damn you

Previously I stupid
Thought bcos I nice to them, they will treat me good.
Bull shit.
Yes 1st week, they treat me wow
how nice, how good are them
Even the worker * work there for 1 month* also say they are good
I thought cool i found a good company.

Now is 3rd week already.
everything is gone.
Their tail come out already o.........
I even saw their bad face o...

Why Im so mad ???
- they cheat me , cheat my money
- ask me to do thing that doesnt related to my job
-didnt even ask my permission
-make my table messy
-ask me to become salesgirl
-keep promote their product to me
-ask me to copy cat

I know I shouldnt talk bad about a company that I working on.
But how do I going to control myself being treat like this
They bully me bcos Im fresh, new, and * dan chun*
Sometimes I also got my emotion ah
I will get angry also.

You always want to put the award thing on the design.
I told you.
Not every design also muz put that
then you say
cos ppl dont have award ah, so cant put la.
I feel like haha....you so ai mian zi..
.................................................................

I really wanted to continue...
But....

My baby might leaving us

My dear Didi,

Where have you gone?

DO you know we miss u..

You have been dissappear for more than 12 hours. 

Are you alive or.....

Can you pls come out..

sis have been finding you everywhere.

Where are you now..

Can you pls come out now.

If not you will.. without water

Pls be safe my baby.

We really hope you are fine.

Everywhere also didnt found you

that make us moody

Baby.....

We are waiting for you to return.

Pls come out and see us.

Plsssssss.

Dont keeping sleeping.

Come out now

We pray for you.

Wish can see you again.

Come out pls

You are good baby.

Dont make us worry about  you

We dont want you to leave us.

Your partner is waiting for right now

Dont you see it?

Every friends of you are waiting you.

Come out and find them.

If you leave, your partner wil bored and miss you

Find them back.

Come out and see them.

Baby. Pls come back

我到底是个怎样的人

我究竟是个怎样的人？
连我自己也不懂。。
从以前到现在我妈每次说我
固执· 情绪化· 没良心
可是朋友说我
太好· 心软· 脾气好
到底我是怎样的人？

去外面独立后
我妈说我
记仇· 固执· 要那样就一定要做到· 意志立很强
* 我在外面受过多少苦，谁知道！
我首次在外面租房间所受的苦， 谁跟我分享？
我父母吵架， 吵到要闹离婚。 难道就只有你们做父母的痛苦吗？ 有想过做女儿的我们吗？
当时的我要承受读书的压力等等的， 还要看到你们这样
房子进贼后，我所受到的惊吓。谁能与我解决？
在恋爱上被爱情困扰， 却没人能分享， 是多么的痛苦？。。。。。*

以前的我，
我以为人对人好，
别人会对你好。
可是我并不觉得了
有时做好人只会害了自己。
到头来被人背叛的很痛苦的

从经验吸取到
人不犯我，我不犯人
*但却导致我妈说的。不管我的事，我就不理的我是个没良心的人

哈哈好笑
我没良心， 没良心。。
我没良心就不会关心你。
我没良心就不会一再的忍你
太好笑了。。

我真的不懂我是怎样的人
在外面人眼中
我是个可爱，安静， 疯疯癫癫
可是为何我在我妈的眼中却完全不懂。
我是两种人， 还是你是两种人
你每次在别人面前说你会听女儿的话等等的
请问你对的起良心说吗？

越写我的心越痛。。
谁告诉我。我是怎样的人？

Start missing

I started missing my classmates oh .T.T After this, dont really know when we will saw each others again. Although what Sweii say design industry is very small, but sometimes is hard to meet a person also. 

I feel Im weird today. When I arrange those photo, that I took with them, I suddenly feel my mood is down. 

I remember I only start close to them just few term before. But I already start to miss they all. Before that I dont close to them cos I dont really how to communicate with them, I feel im more lowest class than them. 

But when come to group work, that is the time I start to know them. I remember I group with Jake, Jason, Sok Voon, Ter Yi, Ah Sheh, Sharon, Siew Wei, Rebecca, Fariz, Foo, Nico and Kenny before. 

Inside group, I know that sometimes from the surface, I cant really see how is the real person. I really happy and glab to work with you all. 

You all give me a cool memory and experience. Although sometimes when group sure will have some arguement or sad moment. 

But we still together. I really happy to meet the whole class. Although you all are consider my competitor. But you all make me dont easily to give up myself and improved myself too. Whenever I need help, some of you also help me. 

Thank you. 

I wish you all have a great future and wish to meet you all in the future time.

I miss you all. * Actually crying while typing, bit emo now*

Today chat with Sok Voon oh .1st time chatting with her for quite a long time. 

She was sad becos of presentation yesterday, If i was her, I also will feel sad. But I trust Sok Voon is a strong minded girl. She is a good example for me to learn with. 

I love her artstyle, her leadership and so on. These all I weak at. I group with her twice. In the group I found that, she can be stronger than a guy.

 As what ppl say 女强人.

Sok Voon gambateh. ^^

Having a Bad Night

Before I slept, I received two msg from *that fellow* . I really wanna hit or punch him badly oh.

 Already more than two years, why dont you let me go?????

 You always say I really love you. Dont you know if you love one person, you also should now how to let go. You tied my too tight, I cant breathe, do you know that? I dont want to be a bird inside the cage again. 

From the start till now, you should know I dont like ppl tied me too tight, I want some freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom........

Whenever I received his msg, I wanna reply back and scold him. 

Do you know how to keep your promise, you say you wont disturb me again. SO what the hell is this. I dont like ppl keep stick me until I cant tahan ahhhhhhhhhh I really gonna crazy with this.

 That time you are the one who hurt me, cheat me, scold me and treat me badly. Why now only you know how to appreciate a person. 

Once the feeling is gone, is impossible for me to turn back to you. And I wont let myself turn back also.

 A guy who easy to give up, who are weak, who dont care about your own future, I wont force myself to go back. 

Once I received your msg, my mind wil always think back how bad you treat me. 

Damn ...This is my 1st. How dare you treat my 1st love. PPl say 1st love is a beautiful time. 

What you give me???? You give me your stress, your moody, and so on. How about mine??? Who should I tell?  Answer is no one. 

Sometimes I really wish I didnt meet you before or lost all my memory. But I know it will not happen. And I will not let myself fall down again. 

Dont even do stupid again in front of me. Such as kill yourself, pretend accident and so on. 

I wont turn back. I dont want to have a evil dream. 

Dating with Friend ^^

Today went out with Kim hehe..^^ long time din meet her oh
Sound happy oh ..but we can only gai gai for around 3 and half hours only cos my dad need to take us back to Ipoh oh ..T.T hehe..
I put on my contact lens again * 2nd times * only hehe..^^ so it take me half an hour to put it on. then wear pink shirt with shorty ^^ hehe put on my favourite big big round earring oh ^^ recently love big round earring although my friends always wanna put my ear. They say my ear too small so put it longer haha
Met Kim around 11am.We both seem like chatting more than shopping oh haha..When we think of something need to buy then we only go to the destination, thats the reason that make us keep hang around the same place. From top to bottom then back to top again ^^ haha....A bit sot sot de oh haha no choice oh ..one crazy girl is enough already ...but today two crazy girls meet up sure * xiao* already oh hahah^^...We go makan makan then take SS photo haha^^
After that we dismissed lo.Then i also need to go back oh...sigh..Dont know when I can meet kim again oh ..Cos after graduate, I also dont know where am I. Should I choose to leave this sad place to travel another place awhile?
After cos I wanna oi oi in car so I must take my contact out..I go to public toilet on the way home, then take it out.^^ hoho I take few minutes to take out only but dont know why everyone saying putting contact lens is faster than taking out. Why min so weird? Am I alien? Might be...hahaha
Internet a bit something wrong today. So I upload my photo tomorrow hehe ^^ See ya

shopping day

hehe today raining the whole morning oh ..but still got out for shopping hehe ^^ but oh didnt thought of buy stuff hehe ^^ but sometimes very weird oh if someone dont think of buy, you sure will buy something back haha ^^ 
hehe  ^^ when i went in the shopping complex, I saw a shop selling soft toy oh ....weeehhhh one of my favourite oh ...hehe ^^ only RM 30 for 2 ..some toys i found are cheaper than outside so went in oh haha ^^


this is my mei mei ^^ haha ^^ my new soft toy hoho...I can hug and sleep on it .^^ hehe cos my sis is monkey so i buy this weeeeeeee...........................

my mei mei climbing on the sofa haha ^^

then one go and shop in jusco oh ...found many toy toy oh^^ heheh ^^

cute oh .......

     

hoho ..then buy many mum mum go home oh ..^^ cos shopping easy to get hungry oh ..then saw my food, i also become * wei chi* oh ...hehe yum yum yummmmmmmmmmm oh 

go pasar malam at 6pm oh ...hoho buy thing again oh ..fainted oh ..haha ^^ 
but i cant find any food i wanna eat for dinner oh ...cham oh 
Where is my dinner !!!!!!

whole day at home

Wahaha.....long time didnt stay at home whole day oh haha..^^ 
can I be white again ah ? hehe I want to return to white skin oh ...that might is hard oh T.T

whole day like doing nothing oh ...so relax oh haha....
Name card produced today ...Finishing skill tested today cos need to cut the name card out as soon as I can .
Then my sis and mum reach klang today. Actually was thought of going window shopping tomorrow. but no car to go shopping oh ...sad oh ....

I want to shopppppppppppp......Done my final project too relax now .......wohoooooooo

FPS done ....Spend RM 150 today

Today just done my Final Project Little Shin Bag presentation ohehe ^^....

Morning that time I was rushing for my finish art thing such as my CD jacket, sticker and so on. hoho this project really test my finished skill oh. I need to do packaging, CD jacket, sticker, and etc. wooo long time didnt touch my baby cutter oh ..hehe sayang sayang. 

Today printing shop only michelle, there are a lot ad student there oh ...hard for me to print my name card. I waited my name card to be printed and lamination for few hours oh ..But pity michelle, she only get to ate her food on 6pm oh. 
I spend RM150 today oh ...Out of my budget lei>.<>

Today got some special thing for fren hoho....
Kelsey give her illustration card for me ...I lov it weeeeeee

These are the cup from jason pang .^^ I saw her gf today oh ..Anda tiny squirrel oh..but i forget what it call...is kawaii neeeeeee......

hoho...Im back

Sorry ah ...Long time didnt update my blog hehe ^^
I just done my FPS ..so now so free lei ...hehe ^^ 

Welcome me back ka ? 

Group ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Jan 21th

Today we go and meet client, cos later we going to do storyboard together already. Dont care Jake is coming or not. We cant becos of one person, everything have to delay. If not supervisor scold us again.

As usual our leader fetch us there, he did tell me that Jake didnt even reply msg or answer the call. He cut the call also. What is he going to do? Why so bad performance? Dont want to graduation ah?Then pick everyone up, then start our destination. We reach there quite early. So we meet up client early a bit oh ...cos we can done our thing more smooth. But ...again something that block us to move further. Client haven give us the name list that we need to do storyboard. So no choice oh ....gonna rush next day.